Looks like I'm actually starting that blog I've been talking about for a few years. Let's see how this goes.
This Friday I will be 36 weeks pregnant. My due date is ridiculously close, like closer than we realize. I can't wait to hold this new little babe in my arms. To kiss her tiny baby nose. To see what her ears look like. I freaking LOVE baby ears. To watch her wrap her tiny baby hand around one of daddy's fingers. To see Awesome and Christmas meet their newest baby sister, "Snoopy". To watch how much love just pours out of their little bodies! I'm ecstatic.
And I'm scared. This is our 3rd kid... We got this! Right? I mean, I know we do. But I'm still scared. Is it because I'm stressing over fitting 3 car seats in the back seat? That's harder than you realize, if you've never done it. Who goes where? Is it because I'm wondering how I'll manage to keep 2 toddlers and a newborn happy all day long? Is it because our 2 toddlers still aren't perfect all night long happy sleepers? Is it because daddy will now seem a million miles away at work in Cherry Hill (it's seriously like 1 mile farther than Callowhill)? Is it because before I got pregnant this time, I was in the best shape I've ever been in, and I can't wait to get back to that... I have weightlifting goals just waiting to be met....but how soon and easy will that even be? Is it because while I'm just typing this short first blog I have 2 kids whining "you did not make chocolate chip muffins yet?" "Can I have a banana?" "Did you snip the picture I drawed yet?" "I want more juice." "Mommy!! ::cries::" ?
I just read an article about postpartum (http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/5343907?ncid=fcbklnkushpmg00000037), which is why I suddenly got the courage to actually internet talk about my fears this time around. How is it that this time is so much more scary?? Is it really? Or am I just being a normal hormonal pregnant mommy? I'm just glad that I have such an amazing husband, the best friends and the best family by my side. Thanks in advance everyone. <3 I really really can't wait for us all to see this beautiful new bundle of love!!
-Cookie
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